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Title: I know what I want
Author: [ profile] mhobbs0430
Pairing: Adam/Kris
BETA[ profile] wizardesslyn and mentor, and coach.
Word Count: 2883
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer:  This never happened, just in my imagination.
Warnings:  smex, I think that's enough, don't you?
Summary:  A/U where Adam is a singer in a club and meets Kris, who's questioning his sexuality.  Smex happens. 

A/N: This is my very first attempt at writing, period.  I want to thank [ profile] wizardesslyn for giving me the encouragement to post this.  Thank you for all of your help!

Comments are love!

The crowd cheered for the last song.  The singer took a bow and walked off the stage.  Adam walked over to the bar.  “Hey Tommy”, Adam said as he sat down at the bar stool. 

Nice show Adam, you killed it tonight, as always”. 

“Thanks man, how about a Vodka tonic?”  He looked around the bar, “Not much action tonight?” 

“Haven’t noticed, Adam, not my thing, ya know?  A few pretty ladies…” 

“Ha ha”, Adam laughed, “haven’t noticed, Tommy, not my thing, ya know?” 

He slammed down his drink, set the glass on the bar, and got ready for his next set.

Adam sang at Monte’s three times a week.  He loved singing and the crowd loved him, too.  It wasn’t a gay bar, but word of Adam got around pretty quickly, so there were usually a few pretty boys in the audience as well as a ton of ladies.  Not that he noticed them.

Adam also worked part time in a music store.  Adam’s whole life was music.  That’s how he had met Tommy.  Tommy walked in the store one day about 2 years ago looking for a new bass.  They started talking and he found out Adam was a singer.  Tommy encouraged Adam to audition for Monte, and he had been here ever since.

Adam was about to start his second set for the night.  The lights dimmed, and the pianist began. 


Kris had had a bad day, a very bad day.  His girlfriend of three years had finally had it with him and called it quits.  “Kris, it’s just not working between us.  I always feel like you wish I was someone else”.  Someone else as in, not a woman, she meant.  He always felt safe with Katy, but not in love.  Like there was something missing.  He just didn’t know what it was.  He had never fallen for a guy before, but occasionally he felt an attraction.  One he didn’t really understand and usually just tried to ignore.

But, aside from Katy, who promised they’d remain friends, Kris had gotten laid off from his job.  It wasn’t even that great a job, but it’s the only one he had at the moment.

He got home, put his work stuff in his closet and took off his shoes.  His friend Cale had wanted to go out tonight, but he just wasn’t up to it.  Then again, maybe going out was just what he needed.  Just not with Cale.  He didn’t want to have to explain why Katy had broken up with him.  Kris didn’t think he would understand.

Kris took a shower, and dressed in his only silk shirt and tight black jeans.  He wasn’t really sure what he was after, answers maybe.


Kris arrived at Monte’s during the singers’ break.  He sat down at the end of the bar.  Tommy came over to him and Kris ordered a beer.  “So, how’s the music tonight?” 

“Oh, you’ll love Adam.  He goes on in 5 minutes”, Tommy replied, eying Kris.  ‘Hmmm, seems Adam’s type, not that I’m a matchmaker or anything, that’s just weird, whatever….’

Kris turned his seat around, and looked toward the stage.  All of the sudden, the lights dimmed and the most beautiful man he’d ever seen came sauntered out onto the stage.  ‘Adam’, he breathed.  And when he opened his mouth to sing, Kris’s brain went to complete mush.  He just stared at the man.  If he was ever uncertain about what he was, he was sure now.  He felt his jeans tighten and rubbed his hand against his crotch just for a moment to take off the edge.

Kris ordered another beer and watched Adam’s entire set.  He flagged down the bartender.  “Hey there…“ 


“Tommy, I’m Kris, Kris Allen. So, Adam, is he….” 

“Gay?”  Tommy chuckled, “Yeah, he’s gay, are you interested?”

Kris smirked and turned back to watch Adam.  He wasn’t even sure he was gay, but he was definitely interested.


Kris proceeded to have two more beers and was feeling ‘ok’ when Adams’ set ended.  He was sitting back at the bar, talking to Tommy when Adam came over and sat down three stools away from Kris.

“Tommy”, Adam called out and waved him over, “another Vodka tonic.”

Tommy winked at Kris and walked over to Adam.  “Here ya go, Adam.”

“Hey, Tommy, who’s the cutie you were just talking to?”

“Adam”, Tommy said as he walked over to Kris.  “Meet Kris.  Kris Allen, this is Adam Lambert.”

Kris just stared as he sipped his beer, eyes wide open, afraid to say anything, afraid he would sound stupid.

Adam walked over to Kris and sat right next to him.  “Hi Kris, nice to meet you”, he said as he held out his hand.  He just looked at Kris with the most beautiful eyes Kris had ever seen.

Kris just sort of choked out, “Adam….nice to meet you, too.”

“So, Kris, why haven’t I seen you here before, ‘cause I’m sure I’d remember you,” Adam spoke softly, now openly flirting with Kris.

“I… I… I’ve never been here before.  I just had a really bad day, and decided to go out, and ended up here.”

“Well Kris, this must be my lucky day,” Adam winked.

They began chatting away about Adam’s set, and the club.  Tommy watched the two of them, and chuckled to himself, as Adam kept pulling his seat closer to Kris.  Soon, it was time for Adam’s last set.

“Hey Kris Allen, I have to go on.  Please stay?”  Adam looked at Kris with longing in his eyes.

“Sure, I’m actually having a great time.”

“Cool, How about you sit at the VIP table, so you can see better.”

“The VIP table?”  Kris asked with wide eyes.

“That’s where my friends, family and dates sit”, Adam smirked, as he walked Kris over to the front table.

Kris raised one eyebrow at that last one.  “So, I’m a date?”

“Date, friend, you pick.”  And with that, Adam left to get ready.


All through Adam’s set, Kris couldn’t take his eyes off the singer.  He was an incredible performer.  ‘Sexy, raw, beautiful.’  Did he just think those things out loud?  ‘What are you doing, Kris?  Do you even know?’  But, he wanted to find out.  He was very interested in Adam and didn’t want to pretend he wasn’t.

As Adam sang his last set, he would occasionally look at Kris and sing only to him.  Kris could feel Adam’s stare going right through him.  He felt…. warm.


Adam jumped off the stage and went directly to Kris.  “So, what did you think?”

“Seriously Adam, you are amazing,” Kris spoke with hearts in his eyes.

Adam just looked at him.  “Thanks.”  ‘Hmmm, he’s so cute, and he seems interested.  Maybe this night will turn out after all.’

Adam sat down beside Kris and ordered a drink and another for Kris as well.  They talked about music.  Kris told Adam all about his family in Arkansas.  Adam found out that Kris played guitar and piano. 

“You’ll have to let me hear you play sometime.”

They talked for over an hour, getting closer and closer, until Kris was practically sitting in Adam’s lap.

Finally Adam asked, “So, why was today such a bad day?”

Kris looked up at Adam with confusion, having completely forgotten that he mentioned that, then… “Oh, right.  I lost my job today,” Kris said, sipping on his beer.

“I’m sorry, Kris.  That’s rough.”

“It’s ok; it wasn’t exactly my dream job, anyway.  And, then….”

“And then?  What else happened?” Adam reached out and held Kris’s hand.

Well, my girlfriend of three years broke up with me”, he said quietly.

Adam raised his eyebrow and then looked down, slowly pulling his hand away.  ‘Girlfriend, huh, I usually have pretty good gaydar.  Shame……’

After a minute or so, Adam spoke, “So, you decided to go out and pick up a dude?”

Practically choking on his beer, Kris spit out, “Not exactly, well, I wasn’t really sure…”

“Kris, why did your girlfriend break up with you?”  Adam was now frowning.  His evening was not turning out, after all.

“She thinks I’m gay.”  Kris looked everywhere but at Adam.

“She thinks you’re gay.  What do you think?”

“I, I don’t know.” He rubbed his neck, his little nervous habit.

“Well, Kris”, Adam was standing up, ready to leave. “When you figure that out, let me know, ok?  In the meantime, we’ll just keep this the friend’s table.”

“Adam, wait.”  Kris reached out for Adam’s hand.


“Please don’t go.”  He looked at Adam with pleading eyes.

“Kris, you need to figure this out.  I don’t want to be someone’s experiment,” a look of disappointment on his face.

“You’re not….   Look, I’ve known for a long time that I’m gay.  I just never acted on it, and I stayed with Katy ‘cause she was safe.  I came out tonight to find myself, and I found you instead.  When I saw you on stage, I thought you were gorgeous.  I couldn’t stop looking at you.  I have feelings that I never had around Katy.  I wanted you…  I want you now.” 

Adam sat down again.  As much as he thought this was probrably a really bad idea…  “So where do we go from here, Kris?  What do you want?”

“I want to kiss you.”  Kris scooted closer to Adam.

“And then?”

“And then, I don’t know.  Do I have to figure that out right now?”

“Humph.  No, of course not.”


Kris stood up and took Adam with him.  He put his hands on his shoulders, and looked up into his eyes.

Adam returned Kris’ gaze and they just locked for a few seconds before Adam bent towards Kris, and gently kissed him on the lips.

They both shivered at the touch.  Kris got closer and this time they melted into each other, tongues fighting for control.  Adam won out, and Kris let him.  They explored each other’s mouths for what seemed like hours.  When they finally broke away, Kris smiled.  “Wow, I don’t think I’m confused anymore.”

“That was just a kiss, Kris.”

“I know.”

“There’s way more to being gay than just kissing.”

“I know that, too.  I want to go home with you, Adam.”  Kris looked away, blushing.

“No you don’t, you’re just confused.”  Adam put a finger beneath Kris’ chin and lifted so Kris was looking at him.

“I was confused, I’m not right now.”  Kris looked into deep blue eyes.

“Kris, I don’t want you to regret this.  I like you.  I’m willing to be friends first.”  He traced Kris’ face gently with his knuckles.

They sat together for a few more minutes, and finally Kris spoke up, “Adam, dance with me?”

“I know the perfect place.”

“Yours?”  Kris asked hopefully, with lust in his eyes.

Adam smirked, “Not exactly, come on.”

“Where are we going?”

“Have you ever been to a gay bar, Kris?”  Adam asked why leading him out of the club.  “Goodnight, Tommy”.

Kris followed, wide eyed.

“Night, Adam, Kris.”  Tommy chuckled to himself.  ‘That is one lucky man’, he thought, not really sure which man he was referring to.

Once they were outside, Adam held Kris’ hand and they walked two blocks over to a gay dance club that Adam knew.  He pulled Kris inside and they found a table in the back.  The waiter came over and took their order, and Kris noticed that he winked at Adam.

“You know him?” Kris asked.

“I come here, sometimes.  You wanna dance now, Kris?”

Adam lead Kris to the dance floor, and they were playing ‘Bad Romance’.  “I love this song.”  Kris was amazed at Adam’s dance moves.  He was so graceful and sinful at the same time.  “Adam, you are such a great dancer.”

“And you, Kris, are sexy and cute as hell.”   Kris blushed.

He moved closer to Adam, hoping the next song would be slow.  They danced together, Adam’s arms around Kris’s waist, and Kris held his arms around Adam’s neck, pulling him closer.  Adam could feel Kris pressed against him, and could feel himself getting aroused.

“Kris”, Adam breathed.  “You are so hot, baby.  You’re driving me crazy.”

“Hmmmm, Adam.”  Kris wanted to touch him. 

He had begun the evening unsure and a little scared.  Now, he was dancing with the hottest man he had ever met in his life, and it felt so right. 

Kris began rubbing against Adam, his pants feeling tighter.  Adam bent down to kiss Kris lightly on the lips.  Kris leaned into him and began kissing him harder, tongue exploring the inside of Adam’s mouth.   Adam moaned into Kris’s mouth, gaining control of the kiss, while swaying to the music.  “I could get used to this, Kris Allen.  I could get used to you.”

Kris brought his hand down to Adam’s crotch and rubbed his cock through his very tight pants.  “Kris, you are driving me crazy”.

“Then take me with you, Adam, make me crazy,” he said while going faster with his hand.

Adam grabbed both of Kris’s hands, and guided him towards the bathrooms.  “Get in,” he pointed to the end stall.


“Do you want this, Kris?”  Adam was now rubbing Kris’s crotch.  “Are you sure you’re ready for this?  You still sure you’re gay?”  Adam was now pulling Kris’s pants down and feeling for his cock, which was ridiculously hard and leaking.  “You are ready, aren’t you, babe.”

“Adam, please.” Kris panted, squirming.

“Please what, Kris.  What do you want?

“I want you, Adam.”

“Ok, Kris, I’m gonna make you feel so good.  If you get scared, or change your mind, you can stop me at anytime, ok?” Adam looked into Kris’s eyes, which were now totally lust blown as he nodded.

Adam pulled down Kris’s underwear and palmed his dick which was slick with precum.  He kneeled down and took Kris all at once in his mouth. He caressed his balls while moving his mouth up and down Kris’s shaft.  “Kris, fuck my mouth, come on, baby.”   Kris began moving.

He was making incoherent noises and moaning Adam’s name.  “You like that?  You ready for more?”

“Oh God, Adam, I’ve never felt anything like this in my life.”

“Just you wait.”  While still sucking on Kris’s cock, Adam then pressed one finger inside him and felt around until he hit that certain spot inside Kris.

“Fuck, what the hell was that?

“That my dear, was your prostrate.”

“Oh shit, don’t stop, Adam.”

Adam had two fingers inside Kris now, and was hitting that spot every time.

When Adam had worked up to three fingers, he began stretching Kris.  Poor Kris was babbling at this point, and begging Adam to fuck him.

“Soon, babe, come for me first.”  He stroked the three fingers in and out a few more times, and felt Kris clench.

“Adam”, Kris screamed as he shot his load inside Adam’s mouth.  Adam swallowed him up and removed his fingers as Kris moaned at the loss, slowly coming down from his orgasm.

“Are you ready for me, Kris?  Do you want me to keep going?”

“Fuck me, Adam, please, I’m ready.”

Adam grabbed the lube and condom from his pocket and quickly pulled down his pants to free his now red and leaking cock.

Kris looked at Adam’s cock for the first time.  “Jesus, Adam.”

“I’ll go slow, Kris, I promise.”

“Let me help you”, Kris whispered, as he took the condom from Adam’s hand, tore open the packet and rolled it onto Adam huge cock.  He just really wanted to touch him, but wasn’t quite ready to give a blow job yet. He quietly laughed to himself, ‘yeah, but I’m about to let him fuck me?’

Adam lubed up his dick, kissed Kris on the mouth and told Kris to turn around and bend over.  Kris leaned up against the wall, and breathed in deep.

“Ok Kris, I’m going in.  It’s going to feel weird at first, just try and relax.”

“I’m ok, Adam.”

“You’re beautiful Kris, bent over for me, taking my cock.  So pretty.”

Adam went in a little more, stopping to let Kris get used to the feeling.  Pretty soon, Adam had his whole cock inside Kris.

“Breath, Kris.”

“Adam, please move,” Kris begged.

Adam wrapped his arms around Kris, kissing his neck as he started slowing pumping Kris’s ass.

“Faster, Adam.  Oh God, you feel so good.”

“Look at you baby, taking it all for me.  You feel amazing, Kris.”  Adam was now slamming into Kris.  He reached around and grabbed Kris’s cock and then felt Kris tense up as he came for the second time tonight.

After just a few more pumps, Adam came inside Kris, both screaming out each others’ name.

Adam leaned over Kris to calm down, and then gently pulled out, grabbing the condom and throwing it in the trashcan.  He turned Kris around, and kissed him hard.

After a few minutes of just holding each other, they dressed, and then walked back into the bar, holding hands and kissing.


“Yeah, Kris,” Adam stared into those beautiful brown eyes.

Would you please take me home, now?”

Adam put his arms around Kris and held him tight.  “Kris, I may never let you go."

Next Part

Date: 2010-12-05 05:39 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
loved it! great writing for your first time! KEEP GOING :-)

Date: 2010-12-05 05:46 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Thank you! That means a lot to me.

Date: 2010-12-05 05:40 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I'm so excited for you!
GREAT job honey!
And you're so welcome!
xoxo <3

Date: 2010-12-05 05:46 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Thank you, Thank you, Thank you!!!

Date: 2010-12-05 05:55 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
awww... hon you help me sooo much!
it was nice to return the favor :)

Date: 2010-12-05 05:54 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
LOVE the title!
and my favorite part...
'Then take me with you, Adam, make me crazy'
love that line!

Date: 2010-12-05 06:56 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
First time?? Keep going, bb!! This is good!! :)

Date: 2010-12-05 07:02 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Thank you! I'm already thinking sequel.

Date: 2010-12-05 07:05 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
This was really, really good bb!
And of course you couldn't leave out the smex, I didn't expect anything else from you. Lol.

I loved it!

Date: 2010-12-05 07:13 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Thank you! I was going to tell you ahead of time, but decided this would be more fun.

Date: 2010-12-05 07:48 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Yeah, you surprised me with it...
But I'm glad you did!

Date: 2010-12-05 08:51 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Good job, bb. I love reading people's first fics. You should totally keep writing fics because it was good. I am always impressed when people can do a one-shot because I never can.

One suggestion you may want to use italics instead of single quotes for thoughts because at first I thought it was said. That is what i do but that might not be right, either :) Keep em' coming.

Date: 2010-12-05 09:16 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Thank you so much. I wasn't sure on that either.

Date: 2010-12-05 09:53 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Molly!!!!!!!!!!!!! this is AMAZING!!!! I am so proud of you and of course, I am glad you made your first fic "Kradam"! I am so happy I got you into reading KRADAM are a pro!

I am so happy for you!!!!


Date: 2010-12-05 10:26 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Thanks Donna, I am glad you did, too. Will I get to see you this week at JingleBall?

Date: 2010-12-06 12:49 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Hi'm not going to be able to make it...I can't get a babysitter to stay late during the week :(

Date: 2010-12-05 10:55 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Very nice job for a first fic. Keep up the good work! :D <3<3<3

Date: 2010-12-05 11:43 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Thank you.

Date: 2010-12-06 04:24 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Great job! Really hot!

Date: 2010-12-06 08:28 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
*incoherent mess*
That was hot.
I love unsure!Kris! :D

Date: 2010-12-06 12:44 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
So sexy and romantic!! Good job!!


Date: 2010-12-07 12:10 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Oh, it's very very nice!!! I love this fic very much)))

Re: Wow!

Date: 2010-12-07 02:12 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Thank you, very much.

Date: 2010-12-17 06:38 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I Know What I Want too...YOU to write more KRADAM!!!!
Fuck that was hot! I love it when they are instantly attracted and hook up in the same night. Ohmygosh! Whooo! Wow!

Ok, I don't think I'll be satisfied with just one reading. I'll be visiting this again soon :) And bartender Tommy was so cute! <3 That was HOT! Please write more *batting eyes* pretty please?

Date: 2010-12-17 01:22 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I know, I like that too. Thank you so much.

Date: 2010-12-17 11:09 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Wow! Another writer whose work I'll look forward to reading. Keep it up! :) CC

Date: 2010-12-17 01:21 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Aww. Thank you. That means a lot.

Date: 2010-12-22 11:48 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
haiiii! i adore your avi and wondered if you have the original size pic and/or know where i can find it?? if yes, would you please post it here? i'll be very grateful. thank you!

Date: 2010-12-23 02:43 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Gee, thanks!

I already posted your request. Please check if it worked out.

:) CC

Date: 2010-12-19 11:49 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Loved it, thanks!

Date: 2010-12-27 11:52 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I finally had a chance to read this - it was really good - I hope you continue writing & sharing with us.

Date: 2010-12-28 03:07 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Thank you so much. I'm working on the third part right now.

Date: 2011-01-10 02:15 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
First time? Very impressive. Keep writing!

Date: 2011-02-21 12:51 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Ooo! I remember reading this awhile back :) Good fic.

Date: 2011-02-21 01:16 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Thank you so much for reading.


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